Thirteen reasons why my life is in a state of flux.
1. I have five more terms until I finish with my BS, and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.
2. I am realizing all of the opportunities that are set before me. The question is which one will best suit me and what I will be happy with that will provide for my family.
3. In the last week I’ve had four people ask me (three in one day) why I am not considering law school (I did consider it at one point). One such person is my supervisor. I received the, “Well you can do other things with a law degree besides practice law.”
4. I have a lot of research to do about entertaining the idea of law school. There’s the LSAT and financial aid.
5. I really don’t know if I am going to do CASA. Now that I have spent time praying about it, I see that I feel it is more of my obligation instead of a desire. The problem with doing something because it is JUST a feeling of obligation is the quick loss of interest or burn out. I firmly believe that if I get involved with a cause I need to WANT to be there.
6. I still haven’t heard back about an article I submitted to a Pentecostal magazine.
7. I really, really want to write. I want to make a difference. I want to help people (don’t we all). It just doesn’t pay the bills and I really don’t possess a lot of time to do it.
8. I feel quite overwhelmed at the moment with all of the changes I’ve experienced during the last week.
9. My cinnamon muffin tastes like a mouthful of lard. No, I didn’t make it.
10. I just wonder a lot about the whole law school thing. The loans would be, at a minimum, $120,000. I don’t know if that includes living expenses because I certainly would not be able to work and perform to the level I know I am capable of.
11. I don’t even know if I want to continue with my education when I finish my degree, but if I don’t do it now (as in next fall) I know that I will never do it.
12. If I can do this, I can do anything…but do I really want to do this or am I just trying to prove that I can?
13. Academically, I rock. I am the most indecisive person, though.